Saturday, April 12, 2008
[saturday] went to meet regine first. then train-ed down to dhoby ghaut. saw lots of familiar faces. damnit. first was jx's so-called 'cyber bully'. then was some girl from 4a2. then joel moo, and kenneth. at plaza singapura, saw alot luh, too many to mention. went to walk at PS, then 16-ed to National Stadium. the bus was... squeezy. my hand was numbed when i reached the Stadium. waited for SW and gang. finally settled down after walking and walking. saw lots of people, including the whole bunch of softball girls. CONGRATS TO THE BAND, for the wonderful performance. went off at 5.15pm, waited for bus number 11 for like half an hour?!then, my bladder was like bursting, rushed for the toilet at kallang mrt station. train-ed to city hall, then to yew tee. on the way back, the 2 of them, kept teasing me can! SW spoke with a slang, added a 'wor' to EVERY sentence. for example, 'you not tired wor?' ; 'so funny wor'. LMAO! on the way back, i was like... so sad. or rather, i was down. because,...... ):
rushed home, fearing my mother would nag. she kept calling and sms-ing to see who i'm going out with. its like, no freedom at all can.
i'm already 16. not 6. please spare a thought for me. i know you care for me, but this is not how you should do it. i'm old enough to know what i'm doing. you cant possibly still do that when i'm 21. i dont know how to explain to you, i cant shout at you, cant scold you. but sometimes, i really feel like doing so. you are like calling up every hour to check on me, asking me who is this who is that, what class, etc. i fear you might go call up my friends to check on me. i have my own rights and freedom you know. i'm so stressed. sometimes i really feel like leaving the house. i dont interfere in who you go out with, what you do. because i respect your privacy. can you please do the same thing? respect my privacy? dont go round asking or calling me to see who i go out with. dont always have the mentality that i am going out with a boyfriend or girlfriend. it sucks you know. you might as well hang a camera on me, or hire a PI? one day i will go bonkers because of you. pleaseeeeeee, just let me go out happily, dont always have the thinking that i'll lie to you. it takes brain cells to think of lies to lie to you, it kills brain cells. dont blame me if i go bonkers and kill myself. i'm sorry.
enough of complains. but i'm really stressed out by her. i cant even go out in peace. =.= i know she cares, but this is too over. she just keep thinking i'm lying to her. WHY WOULD I? if i want to, i would have lie AGES AGO. why wait till this year? come on, most of the other 16 year olds dont follow WHEREVER their parents go. I FOLLOWED them since young. to temples, to relatives' house, etc. i rarely go out with friends. its only recently that i go out every saturday to libraries. she just dont trust me. hell. i have had enough of this.
i'm famished now. but there's nothing to eat.
i'm giddy, ears blocked. i'm like still in a train.
=.=
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